Sometimes, it's not easy to start typing something, especially when you know you need to "write something wonderful". It's stressful and It will make me more stressful if I know my words are not wonderful enough. Shall I buy myself a cup of coffee before I start on? Or would it be better for me to have some brainstorm games? Well, I am stuck here now.
It's almost 5AM. I come out from the store to have some fresh air and see whether I am lucky enough to have someone will inspire me a little bit on this writing assignment. But obviously, it seems that no one can easily obtain an answer by standing on a silent and dark street.
"It's not a big deal, just get start on it." I told myself.
It's really mid-autumn now. The leaves, which are trembling under the breeze and struggling to stay on the trees are turning yellow and brown. Maybe 2 months later, they will all be fallen as well. In the moment, I can't help myself to stop on thinking how green they were, how shinny and oily green they were, how energetic they had presented themselves few months ago. They recall some of my past memories.
The book was called Oliver Twist, my first novel. I was sitting in front of the desk, using different colours of pens to underline the vocabularies which I didn't know. Checked the dictionary, knew what they means and tried my best to remember or "swallowed" them even as I knew they might not be "digested" well. It was tough, who can regard that as an easy task? But I appreciated what I did at that time. The actions were so shinny, young and energetic. A word followed by a word, you will not feel tired to explore them at that time. I am not dare to say I would be able to do it again because I knew I am not young anymore to play this kind of games. But it's really thankful that I had repeated these practices when I studied English. They are the treasures for my English writing.
It's absolutely disgusting to serve drunken customers in the store at midnight. I can't imagine why they are willing to "absorb", or being "absorbed" by alcohol to continue the so call excitement feeling. It's not a usual practice for me. Anyway, the point which annoyed me or makes me worry so much is about my poor Korean language if situations happened. I dislike, I hate myself being looking so foolish and even can't show some intelligences to fix or organize the words in a good manner while I speak or write. I admitted that I am not a good writer in English. But at least, I required myself not to be so bad to express myself clearly. It's very important to me, and it is also meaningful to me if you can know me well through my words. Thank you so much for reading this. Thank you!
I can see how you used the freewriting technique in this essay to your advantage. The transition from writing whatever that popped into your head to writing more personal and thought out ideas is wonderful. Also, your word choices and usage are really quite refreshing. It makes me wonder what exactly you were thinking in your first language and definitely makes me look forward to your future writings.
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DeleteYour writing read like a short story which was very refreshing to read. It read like a thread of thoughts and I could relate to them all throughout. It allowed me to picture your actions and a small portion of your life in my head as I read you writing which I think is always the sign of an interesting piece of writing!
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